The New Year has begun....and I was a tad disappointed.....actually allot disappointed. It snowed New Years Eve and when I got up yesterday morning it was still snowing. So what does this mean....it meant I wasn't going to be able to do the Polar Bear swim. I was pissed at the weather and at myself. I really wanted to do it.....but I realized that it would be fool hearted of me to think that I would be able to make it across the rocky shore...now partly covered with snow. I also realized that I wouldn't be able to tread water so again that would be foolish of me. I recognized that.
I started to think about all those wonderful people in this world that have had dreams and were faced with what some would say insurmountable odds....but through those challenges they persevered and made their dream come true. I wanted to be one of those people....not necessarily on the grand scale....just my scale....I feel I let myself down and for that I am pissed. If I had put more thought into it there could have been a way to make the Polar bear swim happen....For example if I had put on a life jacket I wouldn't have had to worry so much about treading water with my arms...my legs would have done well enough...and if I had the helping hand of my hubby or friend to just help me get to the waters edge I could have walked into the water.....there could have been a way....I just didn't think about it enough.
I am a goal orientated person, I have said this before....and for not being able to reach the first goal I had set for myself for the New Year really put a stinger in my mood for the beginning of 2009. It's important to me to make some positive changes happen in my life for this year....and only I can make them happen. I am sure there will many factors and challenges in front of me that will try to tell me it's not achievable or try to convince me I am reaching beyond the stars....but I am tired of letting it just be....I am tired of accepting things just because they appear to hard or insurmountable....not this year....this year I am going to strive to reach the goals, and as I do I will happily strike them off of my list. Some people may now consider these kind of lists as their "Bucket List".
I was reading an article the other day in Reader's Digest and it was about procrastination. When I think of procrastination I think about people myself included who sometimes are fearful of taking the next step....whatever that step might be. I read their list on how to try to over come procrastination....some of the strategies I tried through out my life....the biggest one of course is making the lists.... At the end of each day you would review your list...see what you accomplished...scratch it off....add more things...make adjustments...and get ready for the next day. I love the idea of lists as it gives me something concrete. Something that I can look at and say "hey I did that today" These daily lists don't have to be earth shattering....but they can be small things that lead up to something big that you want to achieve. Yes lists work for me...the most important thing to remember is to reward myself. Yes that is what they say we need to acknowledge our accomplishments in a positive way.
This photo is of the Search and Rescue boat out in Cox Bay on the West Coast of Vancouver Island....this photo to me epitomizes challenges we are faced with in our lives...we have to face the storms...we must challenge ourselves.What ever your dreams, desires, wishes, hopes or goals are for the coming year and the next....I wish you much success in achieving them.
~Each day is a journey. Each day is a process~ Anne Wilson Schaef
